I'm feeling very depressed lately, and alone, and scared... I'm not alone and I'm not sure why I feel that way... I'm hurting everyone around me... myself included honestly. I just do not know how to get up this time. I dont have anyone I can really turn to and say HELP ME... I just keep getting up every day and going through the motions of the day but some days, like today, it all seems like too much. I would be much better at home, in the dark, in my bed. I know my posts are making people sad and I'm sorry. If you stop reading I totally understand. But this is the only release I have for all of the feelings I have... I know I am not alone. I have a boyfriend... but I am not sure that it is going anywhere... I have my kids... but there is still this loneliness that I can not shake. I'm in over my head. I am so far in debt because I try to buy things thinking it will make me feel better... nope still feel awful and actually feel worse because then I think about how far in debt I am... I am trying to save money to move me and my girls into an apartment and prove to everyone, myself included, that I can do it... but I can barely put one foot in front of the other forget having a smile on my face!...
Life is a messy thing... my life I have messed up and I'm not sure if I can fix it
Although we've never met, I can honestly say most of us have been right where you are (at one time or another, in one way or another). If I can help you in any way, please feel free to ask. Please know I'm praying for you on this journey....
ReplyDeleteThank you :) I'm just trying to keep moving forward... so far so good... :)
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